Do you believe in love at first sight? I've been dating my boyfriend (first love) for 7 years and 4 months. I've heard some people said that first love won't last and I don't agree with that.

NAPNAP is pleased to announce a new benefit of membership, the NAPNAP Career Connection - a web-based career center that connects job seekers with prospective employers. This website was designed specifically for NAPNAP members.

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Yes, it was me who during a work sponsored baby shower opened a cute baby blanket with the silky stuff on the edges like this

And exclaimed enthusiastically, "Oh, I love to run the silky edges between my legs."  Yes, that's right, I told a table full of disturbed coworkers that I was planning to use my precious babies blankie as crotch floss.

What I meant to say, was run the silky stuff through my fingers-which is also a bit strange but not nearly as demented as what I actually said. 

If you missed our 987 Lounge performance by Ludo the other night, sux to be you. HowEVAR, you get lucky (no, not like that) this Friday when Josh airs their live show on his show at around 6ish-i-ness. Kinda six-like. About that time. Yes.

Until then folks, you're awful, and I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!  xoxo

I so freakin bored someone talk

HELLO WWE FANS WHAT DO YOU THINK OF Y2J???   I THINK HE HAS REALLY LOST IT IN THE WWE DIS RESPECTING HBK LIKE THAT AT SUMMER SLAM AND HAVING HIM HIT HIS WIFE I WAS LIKE OH MY GOD THATS NOT RIGHT AT ALL..ANYWAYS I WANT YOUR GUYS IN PUT ON THIS.. WHO KNOWS MAYBE HE WELL GET FIRED WHO KNOWS :) BECAUSE THAT WOULD BE AMAZING IF HE DID BECAUSE I HAVE EVER SEEN SO MANY FANS BOO HIM LIKE THAT WHEN WAS AT THE RAW EVENT HERE IN chicgao I WAS LIKE YOU SUCK Y2J... bECAUSE HE HAD NO RIGHT TO SAY ANYTHING ABOUT SHAWN LIKE THAT..

ANYWAYS EVERYONE

TAKE CARE

FROM ALANA

Should people depend on how long they date to decide when they'll get marry?

Michael Phelps has an endorsement deal with Kellogg's to be featured on Corn Flakes and Frosted Flakes boxes very very soon. 

Here's what the Corn Flakes box is going to look like....

But now, Phelps is getting BACKLASH for not choosing the healthier cereal, Wheaties. 

Nutritionist Rebecca Solomon of New York's Mount Sinai Medical Center says, "I would not consider Frosted Flakes the food of an Olympian. I would rather see him promoting Fiber One. I would rather see him promoting oatmeal. I would even rather see him promoting Cheerios."

Childhood obesity is becoming quite the problem in America and Phelps giving the thumbs up to sugary cereal sends the wrong message, experts say.

CADA MECHON DE TU PELO ME RECUERDA MI JUVENTUZ.        CUANDO TE ABRAZABA Y TU ME VESABAS Y SOLO PENSABAS EN MI.               AHORA AN PASADO MUCHOS AÑOS Y SOLO PIENSO QUE SERIA DE MI SI NO TE HUBIERA CONOCIDO.            SOLO QUIERO DARTE LAS GRACIAS POR SEGUIRME QUERIENDO COMO SIEMPRE.             POR LOS VELLOS MOMENTOS QUE HEMOS PASADO Y QUE YO NUNCA OLVIDO          LE DOY LAS GRACIAS A DIOS POR HAVERTE CONOCIDO                                                           A.M

I need to just stop cleaning.  I can't get anything done.  I think I may be OCD.  lol

No really I see things that need picked up and that leads to more. 

We worked some more on our Brazil unit today.  Not a bunch.  Learning more about the rainforest and the Amazon.  While he was working on that, I was cleaning and rearranging his room AND today I have pictures of it.  It still needs this really awesome constellation border put up around the room.  But that is a weekend job so dh can be here to help.

Well there you go.  Have a good night!!

does anyone know where the gentleman that was taking pictures the entire time will be posting his photos? i dont think he is on larpspace

    The training is coming along nicely. Boston is really shaping up. I cant wait untill are first show (hopefuly next year) . We've had some problems with his feet but they're looking alot better We're looking foward to fall when the bugs aren't as bad. more to come thanx.

Dear Readers,

This is going to be a long post, so I'm asking that you bear with me as I allow the hamster in my head a lengthy run on the wheel that is my brain.

Those of you who've studied my profile will notice the following:

Family
2 sisters, a brother and an awesome wonderful Mother who I miss like crazy.

My Mom hasn't passed on, but she's been taken from me via the cruelty of others and the odious plague of Dementia.

I spent ten years of my life being her caregiver, and one day it was decided - without my input, without me knowing - to put her into assisted living. My sister took her for an appointment with the doctor, and by the evening I was informed that she wouldn't be returning home. The last thing that I got to say to her was "Bye Mom, I'll have dinner ready when you get home". I've not seen her since, and I don't know where she is. The only thing I know is that she is somewhere in town.

Her homecare professionals are attempting to keep me as informed as possible, but I've been told that she doesn't want to see me. I guess I should be grateful that if she happens to drop dead I'll at least get some kind of phone call ... I think.

My sister - who never spent one moment looking after my Mom - gets to see her everyday, and won't even return my calls. We never did get along, but her participation in this cruelty is just evil.

Recently, the person in charge of Mom's care changed and this woman also seems to have some kind of hatred toward me. I gather she and my sister are the best of buds. There's also the distinct possiblity that Mom made suggestion that I was abusing her in some way and that I'm seen as a danger. However, the fact that I'm being given any information at all tells me that this more than likely isn't the case and I'm chasing a crazy thought.

I ended up being homeless for five months, living with near strangers and being abandon with a whole pile of bills that I had to erase from my life before I could even consider moving into a place of my own. It seems that those who made this sudden decision didn't think that there would be any negative consequences because of this. All I have left now is a few memories and a picture of Mom that hangs over the computer that I'm writing this on.

Is it wrong for a 32 year old to miss their Mom in such a way? Am I never going to see her again? What inspired such a reckless, thoughtless decision? What do I do?

It's been suggested that I obtain a lawyer, but I can't even afford to eat everyday. The idea of paying for any kind of help is absolutely out of the question. There is the option of legal aid, but you still have to pay for that service. There's never a totally free lunch.

I wish that I could believe in a loving, caring, fair and just God. The child in me gets misty eyed at the idea of a gentle Jesus, but the adult in me knows that it's all just sugary cereal meant to numb the head.

What does peace look like for me?

*cori!*

<33
bffs  ~
zach!!!!!!!!~ my brother and ily soo much our talk bout unicorns was  sooooooooooooo funny lol ily always ppl wit ADD r awesome
JAZZY~brian + size small=brian !!!!  CHUBI SEAL!!!
WAS IT THIS KIND OF HUG OR THIS KIND OF HUG?
LAUR WHORE!!~
me: laur whore
lauren: cori the whore-e
LOL!!!!
EMILY!~ I WEAR LONG SLEVE SHIRTS UNDER MY SHORT SLEVE SHIRTS UNDER MY LONG SLEVE SHIRTS
ME: SO HOW WAS AFRICA
HER: KIK ****!
OUR NORWEEDGIN DOLPHIN FLIPPER
ehmagawd our conversation about distroying the school was sooooooo effin funny!!! ILY EMI
AL-LA-LEE~
ME: ALL-LA-LEE
ALLY: CORINNE-NA-NIN
BFFFEABBYSDMWHOIMWYFwiamll!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CLAM!!
STIK SHIFT!!!!!!!!!!!!
ONLY REAL FRIENDS PULL CAT HAIR OFF UR EYES
duck!!!lol
wes!!!!!!~ we r suchh good friends and we always will b!!
diciana~ bfffeabbysdmwhoimyf!!!
JACK!~ MY #1 BFF
Q! Q! Q! lol ilyyyy
ALEX~HOT POCKETS!! emo
emo hot pockets bleed cheese
me:grrr
alex:Roar
me:bark
alex:meow
lol i got lipgloss on ur olive tan!!!!
LOLx100000000
BTW I DID NAWT SNEEZE ON YOU!!!!!!!!!!!  BUTT!!!!!!! LOL
KKAT BABY~ OUR KIK **** HANDSHAKE
ILYYY
mat christina sean!!~omg mat,
1st you get your phone STUCK! in my couch !!!!!and then we go over your house you and sean play rockband while me and christina make cookies!! and weee allllll know you like alexxxx!!!!
christina!!~ ahhhh wow haha we jumped in the harpers pool hahaha!!! dont forget that love letter to melissssssssssssssa!!!
sean!!!~ilyy the jcc the lake and movie night !!
anddddd mats house even though i suck at rockband!!!

ilyy all my friends!!!
soooooooooo many more

my freinds rock!! ilyy better than yours!!
lyra and helen!!!!!~
omg u guys were bff's b4 and you alway will be i luhv you guysss!!!!
<333 CORiii Buddy Updates

I just finished reading Cerberus' latest couple of blogs. Do you know he has published his book? How wonderful! I am buying it. Congratulations my friend!

Steve has worked all afternoon moving dirt. I seriously love this man. It has nothing to do with the ordinance notice. He just goes off and works in a frenzy every once in a while. He's got 2 of the beds filled. He wants as much done as possible before the rain comes.

Tomorrow a man comes out to measure the house for siding. I Guess we are squatting on our life. lol how do you change what you so greatly customize? lol And I have decided I AM planting collards in the front of the house. Collards on one side and turnips on the other! LMBO. "They" can't say a thing.

Making changes in your life which will enable you to remain true to yourself in the long run can seem like an exhausting process in the very beginning , but it is such a worthwhile investment. Please read the love letter that changed my life and if you feel inspired, write one to yourself.

Dear Me,

I have to begin this letter by apologizing. I apologize for leading you to believe that I was ever capable of truly being a friend for the first thirty four years of my life. I had a distorted understanding of what relationships were because most of the relationships in which I participated were woven with several types of dysfunction. They seemed rather normal to me because - again, dysfunction was all I ever knew. I did not know how to communicate effectively, how to process rationally, or how to feel. I was going through the motions simply accepting that which I knew, never truly believing that I could ever have more substance as an individual. I was a leaver. I was a quitter. I was a coward. I either accepted that which was intolerable, thanking god or whomever that I wasn't abandoned by yet another, or if I wasn’t rejected from the get go, I would leave. The former was far more painful for the recipient than the latter because of the unanswered questions as to whether or not what we had was ever real. There was not much in my life which was real because I was processing situations as an adult woman operating with the maturity level of a teenager. I willingly became an adult at eighteen, was married at twenty and used those same irrational teenage communication tools when dealing with each and every relationship in my adult life. I did not grow. I did not mature. I simply existed in a state of dysfunction pointing fingers at everyone else.

I chose to see the world through eyes of a victim; therefore I legitimately felt the world was hurting me. I did not take responsibility for creating, accepting, nurturing or even encouraging negative relationships because again, nothing was my fault. I did not believe I was perfect; in fact it was the complete opposite. I was flawed and I rejected myself, therefore no matter how unfulfilling the relationship may have been, anyone who would ‘stick around’ was really doing me a favor in my mind. I thought I was lucky to hang on to relationships regardless of whether or not they had true depth, because unlike the other people in my life who I believed abandoned me, at least they were relationships which were concrete. Or were they?  My relationships were just like bad habits which I was aware of, but chose not to break.  When I would meet people who did not have the stress and turmoil in their lives which I believed was normal, I would avoid them all together. I clung onto the things I knew, even though many were detrimental to my well being. The drama which began as a teenager and was consistent in each and every one of my adult relationships, just felt normal. Then there was the turmoil. If you can only see things one way, and hostility is as comfortable as a warm sweater, then turmoil is eminent.

What was love? All I knew about love was that it was associated with pain. Love hurt. The people who I loved hurt me, left me, humiliated me, or disrespected me, and therefore, in my mind, there was no such thing as unconditional love. The people I loved yelled and used force, or even worse, would give me the silent treatment. I was angry, but I did not reject this tarnished view of love, I continued to search for that which felt familiar even thought it was wrong. The words "I Love you..." could have been "I love cheese." I had no clue what love was, EXCEPT for that which was instinctual when being a parent.

I am trying to introduce you to me. The real me who I have only known for the past few years.  I had to take a look at myself and ask WHY it was that I was stuck. Why was I unfulfilled? Why did I give other people the reigns in order to encourage them to direct me and MY life? Why was I so powerless by choice? Why did I complain endlessly about things, but do NOTHING? Why did I secure the services of professionals in order to do have them do the work for me? Why would I not allow myself to actively create my own destiny? I would reach out my hand and begin a long overdue journey of spiritual growth, but then I would flip flop and revert back to victim. Instead of trying to understand my emptiness and low self worth, because I operated as a victim, I hung my hat on the whys which could be associated with blaming someone else. Why didn't so and so appreciate me? Why didn't my parents care? Why this? Why that? I assumed absolutely not one ounce of responsibility because my knee jerk reaction had always been to blame. Happiness comes from within, and I know that today, but I would have spat on that concept years ago because I was blind to anything other than what I knew.

By allowing the unresolved events of my past to plague my ‘here and now’ I was willingly sabotaging any possibility of creating a new life for myself. I needed to change because I wanted to be ‘free.’ I wanted to feel. I wanted to cry, but not for myself. I wanted to cry for others. I was not a victim and I was never abandoned by my family. I have come to realize that they allowed me to be free by letting me go. I put a negative spin on the whole scenario because I was riddled with self doubt, but today I realize that at eighteen years old, they gave me the gift of freedom.  I gave myself that gift as well. I have dedicated the past few years to exploring the psychology of my mind, and I am breaking free from all of the things that I created. I can finally breathe. Each day is an opportunity for growth. I have realized that I have had not one single negative experience in my entire life. Every experience that was presented to me was a lesson. Now I know I was supposed to learn from them, and I continue to learn every day. Today, I am someone who has the unadulterated desire to grow. Please help me to remain strong and to stay on track. If I become derailed, please help me to get right back on track.

Love,

Me